Counting Blessing

Life has never been so down for such a long time. Traumatized by things that went out of control, worried, frail and helpless. Couldn't just snivel about this surreptitious problem or it was the consequences of the opportunity squandered in the past. Haunted by the helplessness yet I couldn't just morosely weep and this shouldn't be an impasse in my life, no matter how flummoxed I feel, I know there is always hope, and hope comes in different ways every time. 

Its Christmas today and I feel so blessed to be here surrounded by these wonderful friends that helped me greatly during low time. I never expect to receive Christmas present other than getting it from gift exchanging party, I believe there is still so much hope in life as long as the faith remains. 

I used to think I am a kind person but I couldn't deny at sometimes it is tiring, it felt worthless and I hope occasionally these people I been kind to pamper me too. It was recently that I really meet people with big heart, it was from her I see how selfless someone can be, it was then I know how small I really am. It difficult to try to count blessing but today I learned counting blessing is the root of happiness. 

I probably should stop thinking how people should be kinder to me, there is nothing wrong for others to be selfish but it is wrong to put expectation on others. 

Thanks for all the Christmas presents I received this year, that was truly a blessing and I am thankful to have you in my life. 

有你真好~