Give Me A Break!

FML I failed my Engineering Maths.

I only get 4/15. Congratulation, you break the new record of getting less than 1/3 of the score.
I am such a emotional kind of animal. We all got faced the same problem, while everyone else get the highest in class I fill the bottom place. WTF. Maybe I should not let my emotion to control me. I should be less sensitive. Coz during the test period I was totally emotional, upset and sad. I didn't study and gave up way before the test.

I talked to my senior yesterday. And for sure he asked about our problem. Which me and my coursemate problem. He commented that I was way to sensitive. He couldn't believe that they (my coursemate) was like -how-I-describe-they-are-like. So, I ended up telling him, because they once owned a very special place in my heart, so I am expected that they will at least treat me better. Ops, this will drag very long if I continue -so- just use your imagination. Everyone got problem like this before right? If I didn't treat them that important. I wouldn't be that sensitive toward their behavior. Thus, I wouldn't get myself hurt this badly.
Conclusion of the story is "Never put all your egg in a basket!"

Back to my failed Engineering Maths -- I got nothing to say about that, at least it is not a ZERO. Am I over optimist in this case? Whatever, I wasn't that good in maths. Although everyone say that Chinese should be good in maths. I can tell you that I am good with numbers and stuff but not actually Maths. Maths is just TOO general. Engineering Maths sound fun but bear in mind that this so-what-called-MATHS has no numbers, and no +,-,x,/,(add, subtract, multiple, divide) signs. It was more like learning old Greek alphabet. Everything for alpha, beta, to delta, kappa and so on. Plus all those trigonometry stuff which I hated since F5 only miracle can make me pass this subject.

The lecturer is actually very nice just the fact that I skipped so many classes. Do zero exercise. Read zero book. Sit aside and watch drama cause the marks I get. I got nothing to say but to work harder for test 2. No one like to retake subject.

I must bear in mind that if I still not going to work harder for my result to get a -at-least-3.00 and above my 'mangkuk nasi will pecah'. Which I mean my JPA scholarship. Its not easy to get scholarship. Luckily I get and thus I should really appreciate that coz not all student come in with scholarship. My dearest self

PLEASE STUDY MORE AND WORK HARDER!